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Verisimilitude
04:02
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Ohhhh yeah
My head is breaking
It’s killing me inside
This Complete insanity
As i feel these veins are burning
Try harder
Try again
The outcome that I wanted
My heart can feel it pounding
Inside of me
Me
Me
Me
Now I can see it clearer
Now I can see it as if it were through my own eyes
I am in this prison dying in the cell
I’m begging with my head to try
I’m hanging out my head to dry
I’m burning inside of this prison I
I’m preparing myself for what could be the end
I’m digging my grave deeper
While I wear this grin
I wish that every person punish me with sin
This empty coffin
This is where I meet my end
Bury me here
Take me out
Out
Man I think I swear I’m fucking breaking down again
Down again
And when I start digging up the past
I feel my chest cave in
Caving in
I’ve said it all
I’ve said it all
I’ve said it all
I’ve said it all
Too many times inside my mind it replays out
And I don’t know how it just says inside my head
Inside my head
Oh
I lost everything
It was buried deep inside of me
So I gave every piece of it back
And I bled it out in front of me
Man I think I swear I’m fucking breaking down again
Down again
And when I start digging up the past
I feel my chest cave in
Caving in
I’m hanging out my head to dry
I’m burning of this prison I
Breaking down
It’s taking over and I’m
Breaking down
But now I think I’m ready
But now I think I’m ready
They’re fucking trapping me inside of this room
That you fucking convinced me that I could break into
Now I see that every single word that you say
Is burning me
It’s pushing me up at the seems
Bury me
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2. |
Cocaine Cowboys
03:10
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I just want to break my fists for everything I missed
When I was young, a kid
Then I was plagued by death
I was suffocating
I could use a friend
She’d be lying
She’d be lying
She’d be lying
Liar
She never listened
I tipped over the edge
I’ve been over the edge
Think about it all
Think about the time
Think about the past
Think about life
Think about life
When I was younger
Think of times
That made me wonder
Do I always think about this place
That my a-agony sank in
I just think about it
In my head
In my head
You say you want a killer
I’ll show you everything
You say you want a monster
I’ll be your enemy
I’ve seen it all
I’ve been the one who always missed the mark
I’ve burned the bridge inside this emptiness
I’ve felt it enter my heart again
It’s been burned deep inside of every single slit in the skin
I’ll cut through the pain
Assaulted again
Assaulting my brain
Cuz every single part of this is bursting the seams
Bursting the seams
It’s Bursting the seams
You and I will take
My empty heart away
Who am I to stay
This happy inside of hell
So I just take a deep breath
And murder
I kiss fire and
I can’t take this anymore
I swear I’ve got to stay inside of this
Hell that I am in
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Bomba Clot
03:16
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I should have never left you breathing
After all that you did
I should’ve never gave up
with you in the way
I was always in my way
I was always in my way
So it’s a burial site where I can be at the bottom of the sea
And now I’m running a red light
At his behest
Why me
Why me
Why me
I wanna know
I wanna know if this is part of the plan
I gotta know
Can you cut me out of this filthy skin?
I am everything that you wish that you could be
Everything that you think that you can not see
I can take the tenderness inside my heart
Bury it deep with a silver gun
All that I was was a pessimist
All that you were was an emptiness
Inside my head I could be
Inside my head I could be
Anything that I want to be
Wish me the best say goodbye to me
Inside of my head I could be
Inside of my head I could be
Bury me inside of the skin
Tell me everything that you did
And I will be there after the end
Fuck it all I’m a goddamn wreck
You are the enemy
I am the antitdote
This is a virus
That god forsake us to
I would be there for you but
I’m fucking crashing
Trying to understand this feeling that I’m left in
Now I’m getting myself back in the reflection
Cuz I’ve been so sick with the feeling of weakness
I
I
I
Want to be there for me and I
I
I was forsaken for my life that I’m breaking
You want to save me
You want to pull me out
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4. |
Bitch Wolf
03:05
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You will feel my wrath
You will taste
Sweet insanity
What are you gonna do
Kill me?
They are coming there’s no where to hide
What came over you to commit patricide
You mean nothing and you’re gonna die
It’s time that I move on without you
It’s time I look you in the face
I watched his soul leave body
And his name has been erased
How come you didn’t call me
Before you shot him in the face
Now we’ve got ashes falling
Because you burned him at the stake
What are you gonna do
Fucking kill me?
Let’s go out back where the demons hide
I’ll let you choose if you go with homicide
Two shots chambered
Let’s let fate decide
It’s time that I move on without you
It’s time I look you in the face
I watched his soul leave body
And his name has been erased
How come you didn’t call me
Before you shot him in the face
Now we’ve got ashes falling
Because you burned him at the stake
They are coming there’s no where to hide
What came over you to commit patricide
Two shots chambered
Let’s let fate decide
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Fall In Line
I'm Standing At The Top Of Your World
Ready To Burn It All
So Sick and Complacent
Not LIke You'll Ever Replace It
The Closest Thing To A God That You Could Ever know
Everything Is Starting To Show
This is The Dogma
Never Question The Word
Keep Your Head Down
And Fuck Whatever You Heard
You'll Get Chain Choked
Tryna Run With The Herd
This is The Dogma
I Am The Dogma
Do Not Question
You'll Never Move If You're Running In Place
Void Of Substance Just another
Rat In A Race
This is The Dogma
Never QUestion The Word
Keep Your Head Down
And Fuck Whatever You Heard
Youll Get Chain Choked
Trynna Run With The Herd
This is The Dogma
I Am The Dogma
And Ive Got Nothing To Proove
No Nothing To Lose
And I Ain't Fuckin With You
I Wont Deprive You Of Truth
But Do Not Question
This is The Dogma
Never QUestion The Word
Keep Your Head Down
And Fuck Whatever You Heard
Youll Get Chain Choked
Trynna Run With The Herd
This is The Dogma
I Am The Dogma
Nothing To Prove
And Thats What Seperates Me From You
I Know You Feel The Pressure
Coming To Find You
I'll Give You All What You Want
I am The Dogma
I am The Dogma
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6. |
Hollow
03:27
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I’ve been living for myself and now it’s time to break
My mind is assaulted
I’m slowly crumbling inside
Into a place where everything is burning me alive
So who am I to believe that the best were the ones who Never cared for me
And who am I to believe that the system that I am meant To live in will not see
I just gave my everything to the ones who never gave a Damn about me
It’s funny how I could write all the songs but there are Ones that don’t care about a thing
And I can see that it’s in my heart
I don’t want to sing like this
It’s not the perfect me
But it’s what I chose
Are you listening
They said they’d call me back
But but they’re still with you on the other line
I’m trying but I can’t forgive
It’s one too many steps
Its turned into
Eye for an eye
Ill say
I won’t let you in
And now I’m suffering to get you back with everything I Said
Cuz the hole inside of my head
Is blurring out all of my vision
And it’s pushing me to be a part of my own incarceration
This could change it all
They said they’d call me back
But but they’re still with you on the other line
I’m trying but I can’t forgive
It’s one too many steps
Its turned into
Eye for an eye
Ill say
I won’t let you in
And now I’m suffering to get you back
With everything I said
With everything I’ve said
I feel it in my chest
Burn it down
Take it all to the ground
I felt it burn
Felt it shake
Hear it over the sound
I’m burning out
Every other day
I wish I that I could be a part of you
This isn’t how you punish me why don’t you tell the truth
Don’t fake
So speak
Or go
Away
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Wanna know whats its like to walk a mile in these shoes.
All you see is the surface.
You can’t see the depths of tree roots.
Or the work put into deserve this.
You will never dictate my path
But I know for a fact you’ll try some.
What’s your name again?
I don’t believe we’ve met you still run your mouth some.
Walk a mile in my shoes and you’ll see just how it feels
Grinding so relentless even if it kills.
Then you’ll see the strength and the reason I prevail.
What Did You Say?
Your Opinions Are Meaningless.
Stay In Your Lane
What Did You Say?
Your Words Fall On Deaf Ears
So Stay In Your Lane
Cuz We Don’t Play Those Fucking Games
You’ll never get the best of me
You’re just a fallacy
Fake is what you are
Drunk With Hate
You will never dictate my path
But I know for a fact you’ll try some.
Whats your name again?
I don’t believe we’ve met you still run your mouth some.
Walk a mile in my shoes and you’ll see just how it feels
Grinding so relentless even if it kills.
Then you’ll see the strength and the reason I prevail.
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8. |
Sleep
03:44
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There’s a mess inside my brain
It drives me insane
It keeps me awake
To the point where it gets in my way
You don’t want me to stay
Don’t want me to stay
I told them I was happy so the pills they came and took them away
And now I’m struggling day by day
What else can I say
What can I do
What’s happening to me
Now here I am dying day by day
I told them I was happy so the pills they came and took them away
And now I’m struggling day by day
What else can I say
What else can I say
I feel your breath on the back of my neck (
The darkness grows closer day by day (day by day)
The shivers down my spine begin to drive me insane
They have come to take me away
I’ll just take it day by day (day by day)
I’ll just take it day by day (day by day)
Out of the dark comes straight from your nightmares
Hands wrapping around your necklace
The trauma inside that
You’re fighting to hide
Is freaking you out and now you’re calling it out
So you fight back against the dark
figure from your nightmares
You can’t see
You want it to leave
It will live inside your nightmares
There’s a mess inside my brain
It drives me insane
It keeps me awake
To the point where it gets in my way
You don’t want me to stay
Don’t want me to stay
I told them I was happy so the pills they came and took them away
And now I’m struggling day by day
What else can I say
I feel your breath on the back of my neck (
The darkness grows closer day by day (day by day)
The shivers down my spine begin to drive me insane
They have come to take me away
I’ll just take it day by day (day by day)
I’ll just take it day by day (day by day)
I’ve been talked down to my whole life
I’m done with that shit
This could be my only chance to tell you the thoughts on my mind
So I have to say
Go fuck your self
I said go fuck yourself
Miss me when I’m gone
Hand me a loaded gun
Let’s play Russian roulette
In front of everyone
Miss me when I’m gone
Hand me a loaded gun
Let’s play Russian roulette
In front of everyone
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Eviscerate!
This is A New Way Of Thinking
For So Long I Have Been Sleeping
But Now I Wont Keep On Leaning On
The Crutch Made For Us All
This is A New Way Of Thinking
For So Long We Have Been Sleeping
But Now I WOnt Keep On Leaning
On The Crutch Made For Us
Lately I've been Feelin Like Things Aren't
All That They Seem
Like My Hearts Been Torn Out
Pulled Apart At The Seems
I watch Myself Fall Out
Fall To My Grave
My Mind Goes Numb
Watching I've Been Erased
In My Mind
It was You and I
But Now All I see Are Lies
You Fade Away
Nothing To Cling On To
So Now I Must Eviscerate
Eviscerate!
This is A New Way Of Thinking
For So Long I Have Been Sleeping
But Now I Wont Keep On Leaning On
The Crutch Made For Us All
This is A New Way Of Thinking
For So Long We Have Been Sleeping
But Now I WOnt Keep On Leaning
On The Crutch Made For Us
For Too Long I Have Lived In Fear
Held Back By All The Things I Feel
I'm Tired Of This Weight On my Back
Laugh As My Smile Begins To Crack
What Shouldnt Be
Shall Never Be
A Promised Land
We Will Never See.
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Blinded by the way you see
Every broken part of me
I admit that I’m a fake
Every part of me you’ll take
You will take it
You will take it from me
You’re just a bitch
You’re just a snake
I hope I don’t live for your sake
I hope I die for your sake
This Solitude
Visions Of The Voices Inside Your Head
Dwelling On The Words That Have Been Said
Take A Step Closer
Then Fall Right Back
Disarray In A Spiral
Of Broken Steps
You Can Smell The Hate On My Breath
Like A Noose Around My Neck
Life Or Death
A Self Matrix
Unchained and Unfed
In Desperation
The Sickness Desires To Feed
Tear Your Soul Apart
So You Can See What's In Me
This Solitude
Visions Of The Voices Inside Your Head
Dwelling On The Words That Have Been Said
As Above So Below
Tied to This Anchor
I Need to Let It Go
And I need to let you know
That I’ve got to let you go
Before you turn me into dust
And settle all the scores that you left us
This solitude has turned me into dust
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